Текст песни ...And If I Did, You Deserved It. (Live) - Chonny Jash

I want a new pair of shades, get paid to wear shoes
Do what I say
Don't say what I do when we're alone, now
High up but a low-down
You know I'm not the type of guy to turn my back on a knife
And that's why I'm still looking in the mirror

I wanna be safe from the fame
Be loved from afar
Nine-thousand miles away, where you can't see my scars
Get my good side
From where you can't get on my bad side
You know I'm not the type of guy to turn my back on a knife
It's just my luck, these motherfuckers talking smack on a guy
But I'm deserving every word they could begin to apply
Well, at least they know now

That I really don't care what you think or what you say
Either that or I do way too much
Oh well, whatever, either way
My heart's empty and I'm trying to fill it up
But it's not big enough for the both of us

I want no less than the best, but the best I can do
Is do the worst thing first and leave the rest up to you
I'm realistic
Said the cis man wearing lipstick
If I keep beating myself up, I'll keep on winning the fight
And get my ass kicked
I'm poisonous, not toxic

I'll admit when I'm wrong, but only to be right
And if it fits in the song, I'll rhyme that with 'contrived.'
Don't meet your idols
...don't tell me I'm your idol
You know the only label that I'll sign is in the DSM-5
'cos my flaws are sorta on the pathological side
Don't call me eccentric, call me mentally sick
'cos I ain't sold enough tickets yet to be rich
And that's the only difference

And I really don't care what you think or what you say
Either that or I do way too much
Oh well, whatever, either way
My heart's empty and I'm trying to fill it up
But it's not big enough for the both of us

And if looks could kill, I'd be staring in the mirror
Yeah, if looks could kill, I'd be staring in the mirror
Yeah, if looks could kill, I'd be staring in the mirror
More than I already would
'cos man, I'm looking good

And I really don't care what you think or what you say
Either that or I do way too much
Oh well, whatever, either way
My heart's empty and I'm trying to fill it up
But it's not big enough for the both of us

And I really don't care what you think or what you say
I'm a cancer. I'm malignant
Yeah, you ought to stay away
My heart's fucking empty and I'm trying to fill it up
But it's not big enough for the both of us