Текст песни Demons & Emotions - Clarence the Kid

Look, I could be sad if I want to
Stop trying to police my emotions
If you saw the world through my eyes
I'd be surprised if you weren't feeling hopeless
How the fuck I'm supposed to keep on coping
To be honest I've run out of emotions
I'm numb to it, they pointing the gun, shooting
I look at the blood spewing
And feel nothing maybe something's wrong
I've seen myself die more than I ever should
I've seen too many cops patrolling the neighborhood
And if I get stopped, I'm ready at any moment
To lose my right to life because that narrative is understood
On both sides, if they gave the care they give to a white life
To all lives, I wouldn't be talking now would I
I'm yelling 1312 until the death of me
They ain't respect me, but it's "yessir"
Or else I'm probably bullseye
And then it's goodbye, without so much as a hearing
Or a reading of Miranda to me, what's the point of the right
To be silent if they gonna silence me regardless...
Cops are lawless and it's awful feeling helpless I just
Wanna feel sad for a minute (Shit)
Shit, at least give me that
Cuz this world ain't built for us
I got a love-hate relationship with being black, fuck

All of these feelings been living inside of me
Tossing and turning in bed I just cannot sleep
Wish I could figure out how to get over these
Demons and emotions, I am so exhausted
I can't breathe
All of these feelings been living inside of me
So many bodies I've counted I have no peace
Wish I could figure out how to get over these
Demons and emotions, let me feel sad for a

Sick and tired of being stuck in a system
That never gave a fuck about my existence
They don't want me at all
And every day it gets more apparent
I'm staring in the mirror tryna figure out what's so scary about me
But I don't see nothing
I'm struggling tryna love me, they spitting on me
I can feel retaliation bubbling inside of me
Shove it down and just smile and be polite
Cuz society will think less of me if I put up a fight
Man, I gotta be even better than perfect
Cuz if I'm not then Karen probably get nervous and call the cops
And then the officer will shoot me with purpose
And put me back in the dirt
And just pour my blood on the pavement
Because that's what he was taught
By a system that's killing niggas for standard procedure
Then turn around and give water to a demon
That's squeezing the heater on people
That's exercising the right to speak freely
Police is evil
The way they treat us ain't equal or even
I've had enough of this shit
Really fuck all this shit (Really fuck all this shit)
Really fuck all this shit (Yeah, yeah)
All we do is love and you won't love us back (Yeah, yeah)
Love me back!
All we do is love and you won't love us back (Yeah, yeah)
Love me back!
All we do is love and you won't love us back
Love me back!
What the fuck is that?

All of these feelings been living inside of me
Tossing and turning in bed I just cannot sleep
Wish I could figure out how to get over these
Demons and emotions, I am so exhausted
I can't breathe
All of these feelings been living inside of me
So many bodies I've counted I have no peace
Wish I could figure out how to get over these
Demons and emotions, let me be sad for a minute, uh

It's like they're scared of black (Why are they scared of us)
Saying we terrorists but they tear us apart
Ain't no one hearing us
I really thought this time would be different
How foolish of me to think this country
Would finally give us freedom
That's a privilege we never getting
As long as capitalism living and breathing
We'll be pleading for oxygen
This shit squeezing the life out of my people
So many beautiful kings and queens
Have been beaten down
And never got their power back
Since they kidnapped all the royalty from our motherland
And tied our hands together
Stripped away our culture
We brought it back, tried to have something that's only our own
But the oppressors tried to take that shit over too
What are we supposed to do
Trapped inside a system that wants nothing to do with you
Justice is overdue
I'm so hopeless, only notice pain in my field of view
How are we gonna move
How are we gonna prove that we're worth something