Текст песни Cognitive Dissonance - Constant Companion

I've been flailing frantically
To reach a terminal velocity
To make a peace between the worlds that are inside me
And the one I can't control

And I walk through these streets
Sight unseen
And I go through the motions
Of soulless epiphanies

I am searching constantly
To find a personal philosophy
That encompasses all of my impulses
To reconcile these streaks

Of violence and love
Fear and lust
I am stuck on the fence
Common sense is no weapon against
All this cognitive dissonance

I made myself untouchable
By letting everybody have their fill
Now I am numb to the touch of an honest will
And I am always alone

I got nothing beyond
This chemical bliss
I am in love with the myth
That I carry like Sisyphus

Rolling it up that hill
I keep on rolling it up that hill

I want violence and love, fear and lust
I want radical thought and political dissidence
I need time to convalesce
I need a reason to breathe that is of greater consequence