Текст песни Nomoreroses - Holding Absence

If God is just and fair
Why wasn't my heart spared?
I've waited all my life
To see this holy light
You're smothering my eyes
I wanna see it, I wanna feel it
The harder that I pray
The more you make it rain
I'm soaked in all this pain
Forgive me for drowning
Deafen me with your voice
You stuffed me with this void
And if I've done you wrong by not enduring this pain
Well, where were you and all your eternal holy grace?
I've been sitting on your front porch, knocking on your front door
Knocking till my knuckles go redraw
I've been sitting in the ether, looking for belief
I'm lost like a whistle in the wind
I've been kneeling on my barebones, speaking with my eyes closed
Keeping both my knuckles pressing my nose
But nothing that I ever do
Will close this hole inside of me
If you are just and fair
Why won't you meet me there?
And if I've done you wrong by not enduring this pain
Well, where were you and all your eternal holy grace?
How many tear-stained sonatas must I sing for you to see?
I never believed in you because you never believed in me