Текст песни On My Mind - KCN

I've got so many things on my mind, I can't hold it anymore
I've left some mistakes behind, some have haunted me for so long
When I'm alone, I'm trying but I don't know what's all this for
I've got so many things that eat me alive, forgive my soul

I'm just a guy in a white shirt
Sitting behind the white and the black keys
Take me back, please
Take me back to the times when I was loved
Take me back to the times when people didn't look at me from above
Take me back to the times when I was
Daniel, enough
People changing and leaving is always gonna be tough
How do I cope with their constant betrayals
People meaning the world to me, but oh, you was playing
The plague is back but with a different name
No need for physical attacks
It hurts much more when it's the brain
That always tells me I'm not worth it
Keeps telling me you were perfect
Keeps telling me it ain't gonna get better
It's only gonna get worse and
I keep telling myself that I'm a different person
Just keep working on yourself
And eventually, you'll get reimbursed
Is being all alone a blessing or a curse
The answer has been searched for
I know I'm not the first one

(On my mind)
I've got so many things on my mind, I can't hold it anymore
I've left some mistakes behind, some have haunted me for so long
When I'm alone, I'm trying but I don't know what's all this for
I've got so many things that eat me alive, forgive my soul

Nowadays, people act like they are CEOs or CFOs
Which actually stands for chill the fuck out
Being the boss was not a statement meaning air me for no reason
This ain't an application
I just care for your well-being, at least
Just don't pretend to still be cool with me
It's so stupid, I'm considering you to be my friend
If ever you need me I'm there, however
You would rather watch YouTube instead of
Coming to my funeral and listening to the eulogy
I thought I knew who was real, who was fake
People change so quickly, it is literally insane
It's impossible for me to keep on living in these modern times
Left me on 'seen' after I wrote you asking if you're alright

(On my mind)
I've got so many things on my mind, I can't hold it anymore
I've left some mistakes behind, some have haunted me for so long
When I'm alone, I'm trying but I don't know what's all this for
I've got so many things that eat me alive, forgive my soul

Девяносто-девятый год настал, совпало солнца затмение
С тех самых пор я не переставал бороться с тенью
День сменяется днём, все больше смотрят на меня косо, с сомнением
Я не причём, я просто ем морковный торт, политый карамелью
Встаю с постели, мне сегодня 5 лет
Родители всё спят, а я встречаю рассвет
Открываю подарки, включаю телевизор
Столько лет прошло с тех пор
Сколько тетрадей исписаны
Всякими эскизами, стрелками, лирика двойственна
Будто писал и читал детективы от корки до корки
Выступал играя Moanin, Blue Bossa и Four
Катался каждый месяц я от Базеля до Дюссельдорфа
Плюсы в том, что мне плевать на чей-то Meinung
Пишу текста, смотря на ответвления Райна
И тысяча девятьсот дней, и Lying When I say I'm Fine
Так просто с ней было - а без нее никак, теперь отдай

Я как Мирон, катаюсь с Эссен-Веста до фуд кортов
Ну и год, вытащи меня из Рур-Потта
Будь проклято это место, ведь кончилось детство
Наконец-то можно снова отправляться в очередное бегство
Совмещая неприятное с облезлым
Натягивая на палку мешок, в один все влезло
Мы от подъездов Крефельда, лезвий и плесени
Доберемся до поместий, до массажных кресел
Не так уж и весело сейчас, пока мы малоизвестны
Холодно, мой нос красный как Манчестер
Я пропускаю классные праздники ровесников
Ведь для меня нет ничего важнее
Чем в моменте выступать с этой песней

(On my mind)
I've got so many things on my mind, I can't hold it anymore
I've left some mistakes behind, some have haunted me for so long
When I'm alone, I'm trying but I don't know what's all this for
I've got so many things that eat me alive, forgive my soul