Текст песни Mourning Comes - KnowMads

Alright this is the last one
Lets just do this shit and get the fuck out of here
Imma just go in
I dont wanna think bout suicide
Alright fuck that
I dont wanna talk bout suicide
How come all I see is suicide, suicide oh lord
I don't wanna talk about suicide, suicide no more

I wonder how they feel inside
Does they pain feel as real as mine
I be doing everything I can to heal my mind
But some days I hear these voices in my head
Tell me I ain't got no choice and
I'd be better off dead
Damn it's miserable
Way I see the world thru this lens
When my best friend tell me
Pep you're doing it again
You don't understand the feeling
I don't wanna waste my breath on you
Whoa pep chill homie really how depressed are you
People might ignore me cus I'm dressed normal
If it wasn't for these meds I'd be less cordial
I don't need your sympathy
I don't want apologies
I just want the tools to feel happy
My psychology is impacted
Used to pop Molly and Xans
Until you off the shit
And keep on having panic attacks
Running 10 miles tryna get my sanity back
Leave my pain on the record
Leave my blood on the tracks

Like suicide, suicide oh lord
I don't wanna think bout suicide, suicide no more
(Im gonna see you when the mourning comes)
(Im gonna see you when the mourning comes)
Ya, she asked me
So on a scale from one to ten how you feel today
I feel like I don't know what it feels like to feel okay
I think the whole world against me wanna see me fail
And if I died tomorrow nobody would even care
Social media just make me feel unimportant
Running out of hope running outta resources
People are here for you fuck it they don't understand me
For ten years I been a burden on my fucking family
I don't wanna start relations cus they turn unhealthy
And honestly there's nothing you could do to fucking help me
I can't hold down a job I'm a vagabond
Feeling paralyzed by my self sabotage
Damn it's hard to chase my dreams stuck in this position
Say depression in my genes that's my disposition
Fuck the stigma and your judgment imma keep it real
This songs for anybody out there who been thinking
Suicide, suicide oh lord
I don't wanna think bout suicide, suicide no more
But every winter its just suicide, suicide oh lord
I don't wanna talk bout suicide, suicide no more
But its on my mind

As soon as autumn snow falling
They've been known to go all in
I notice my phone ringing forever that blow calling
Ignoring they low balling
Back then loving all the highs
Future start to fold while that money on the rise
Uncovering the lies, my family start cutting ties
What is pride when I couldn't look my mother in the eyes
Fiends blowing up my line real friends I never call
Said it all, now cant speak on fentanyl without offending y'all
We all got a friend involved
We did not mean to let fall
Thought he'd make it to the league
Balling since he three feet tall
Sizzurp without them pancakes still im flipping that
Cuz I know where Im headed but ain't loving where im living at
Thug'n with that bitch to match
Clothes dressing more fresh
But really feeling so stressed
Fast money, slow death
Scared of heights so I'd like a tight rope with no net
Tryna deal with the fear, overcome but don't forget
Said maybe if I quit still I'd do just fine
But I got enough spit for my shoes to shine
Seen OGs turn legit, working but ain't earning shit
Kids is curious if that reward is worth the risk
I'm rolling like thunder bout to crash tuck the heat
12 years in my trunk, another 5 under the seat
Was shooting like Kobe then hopped up in my dope BM
Slowly getting lonely when cocaine became my only friend
Sometime you gotta break it so you know it bend
Hoes is so pretend relationships is open end
Im feeling like Im, Im feeling like Im lost in hell
Taking meds till my face red as this shotgun shell
Like how the fuck am I not dead or at least locked in jail
On the edge take my problems drop them on that scale

(Im gonna see you when the mourning comes)