Текст песни Off Topic - Krusin

Sometimes I sit and randomly will think to myself goddamn my dad is really dead
I haven't talked about it that deeply with anybody so the shit just sits in my head
Off topic but I know that a song ain't a song to y'all without a fire hook and a beat
But I think I might just talk to y'all because the verse is my mental retreat from the stress of this life and every day I'm more anxious
My defenses were strong, you made em look makeshift
I'm not amazing
Yet
But people push me to be better so lets make a bet
I got a hunnid on me
35 on my guy, but he'll flash it calmly
Rock lee when i roll up with that hidden palm leaf
Its beyond me how yall let drugs turn you into zombies
Mommies, they gone feel it like a jock piece
Strap didnt rhyme and I'm not a shooter so i didn't wanna get too cocky
That's extended
We gon clip it and when you get it we'll end it
I'ma treat rhyme schemes like a bad kid, suspended
Find the meaning, extract it, dentist
Change the formula, mix it up, chemist
I need that clear face, no blemish on the wrist when the watch tock and tick, watch the rocks you kick build my base in place of bricks
Pay the kid the dues you owe or take the risk of me blowing up in a space you dissed
In case you missed the growth young K can rip anything but prefers to create the hit from the the bottom like a Basement, the foundation, I miss kyle anybody know which way he went?
I need this music shit to pay the rent
I spit that fragrant piff I'm boutta blaze again
Fuck five, I need a break I'm takin ten
Fun sized, rappin great they see wayne in him
I must be a smart guy getting brain again
Krusin thru snow sleet rain and wind
I must be a tough guy, get the chains and timbs
Music moves hoes, street gangs and kids

Sometimes I sit and randomly will think to myself goddamn my dad is really dead
I haven't talked about it that deeply with anybody so the shit just sits in my head
Off topic but I know that a song aint a song to y'all without a fire hook and a beat
But I think I might just talk to y'all because the verse is my mental retreat

When I was 10 my dad died it broke me
In my 20s my dad dies, I'm joking
Not about those facts, about his death
(Sad)
Maybe it's better me and that nigga never met
(Mad)
Let me explain, my sis and I have different fathers
The one I loved was the one I treated like a bother
He left this earth and I blamed myself, god punish me
Lost belief in that god, how could you let this be
I miss you so much and there's nobody helping me
Ma should have been there, she was out living selfishly
Blind and angry, sis was suffering too
I had no idea what she was suffering thru
I'm sorry that a youngin wasnt stronger
Depression had me wrapped up real tight, anaconda
Cause now I feel like a snake
I always felt like any day i could break
I just couldn't do it to you
You don't even know you were my anchor do you?
But then I found it, my sound, my creative outlet
I have a chance lets see what we do about it
My thoughts are quiet, there's way less shouting
I think more of beats and way less self doubting
For what feels like the first time I might even be fine
I don't gotta move it I can climb the mountain

Sometimes I sit and randomly will think to myself, you got issues that you need to put to bed
If you talked about it just a little more Krusin could even pull ahead
Make songs for you, make songs for them but you can't see the world in shades of red
It's not what dad would have wanted if he didn't care less or what dad would've wanted if dad wasn't dead