Текст песни separateways - OkayNeon

Tell me, Shoya
Why would you wanna kill yourself?
I just- uhm
Going through a lot of crazy stuff lately
What can i say?

Yeah
You don't know me like you think you do
Tell you all my problems, that i won't do
(Laughter)
And I'm tired of fighting this battle, it's one sided
How the fuck can you look me in my eyes while you lyin'
Pushing me away, were you pushing everyone else
Started to think deep down you wasn't trying
You was lying from the start
Should've knew better to not give you my heart
My anxiety's going through the chart
Just the thought of you tears me
A whole new world, a whole galaxy, a whole new space
I can't think bad about you
Because i still don't wanna go separate ways

And time and time again, my eyes travel to look you in your face
I'm so fucking tired of feeling like I'm a waste of space
Too many times i tried to leave this world without leaving a trace
Do you know what it's like to be around people and feel out of place
Yeah that shit is so lethal
All the reefer that I'm smoking gotta be illegal
I'm too evil, pulling out the deagle
Aim it to my temple or I'm drinking all the diesel
Spark the match and light me on fire
Roll a second blunt 'cause I'm tryna get higher
Testing the tensions of time, baby I'm tired
Still around the same friends, you're such a fucking liar

I knew something was going on with you, do not even try to deny it!
Your room is clean for a change, you cancelled your phone service
And everything after April's been torn off from your calendar!

Yeah
Standing at the edge
Fireworks going off in the back of my head
Doom scrolling on TikTok while I'm rotting in my bed
I wish it as much as you, i know I'm better off as dead
And you don't gotta tell me otherwise, i know that you're right
I know you only stood around because you felt bad out of spite
The amount of pills i put in my system, should not be alive
I burdened you with so much, i don't blame you for leaving my side
Gunshots in my head, yeah they're ringing
Would've never thought I'd see the day you're leaving
I see the flower i put on your head every season
I will never stop loving you, even if i stop breathing
I know you're a liar but i still want you as mine
I don't wanna leave you alone, I'll go back in line
I know it's not your problem if i cry away these nights
We may go separate ways, I'll wait till the end of times

(one of the atomic reactors in chernobyl)