Текст песни LOST IN YOUR LOVE - PEDLER

Lost in your love, eternal abyss
Won't you come back, miss the touch of your lips
The smell of your hair, the feels I say ain't there
I treated you like shit and I know it isn't fair
You wanted me to grow, but I just couldn't see it
You wanted me to show, the things I said had meaning
Wanted to prove to you I was made for big things
All you needed was respect and yet I had you pleading

Feel I'm not deep enough to dig anything up
Heart been broken by simple lovers lust
One sided relationship the worst pain you could feel
Crying in your car about something not real
So many women I've been with shit got fucked up
Starting to realize I'm the one who is fucked up
Drinking again, the pain got me fucked up
If you ain't relate, good news you ain't a fuck up
Don't know how I could make it up, to these girls who I hurt
I'm piece of shit, a fucking animal, can't wash off that dirt
They show me love, cos I give respect to my fellow people
Cos all these men out here are truly fucking evil
Never check our boys on they way they acting
We don't wanna talk about that so we seek distractions
And when you grow, that Karma gone come back in fashion
You have a daughter she gone suffer your lack of action

Lost in your love, eternal abyss
Won't you come back, miss the touch of your lips
The smell of your hair, the feels I say ain't there
I treated you like shit and I know it isn't fair
You wanted me to grow, but I just couldn't see it
You wanted me to show, the things I said had meaning
Wanted to prove to you I was made for big things
All you needed was respect and yet I had you pleading

So, this is where this poem sort of comes from and uh, it goes like this
The masculinity and the bravado in this society
Is what I've been raised to believe will solidify me
The vices and the stimulation will desensitize me
The illusion does not comply with me
A new girl will always be the fantasy, but will they ever satisfy me
I feel like the whole world will always strategize against me
Emotions and love will always be analyzed
But does it really cut through so deep? That you can feel it in your soul
Are these mind games? Or is there truly something more
Will TRUELOVE ever exist? Or are we just playing our role
What's the higher purpose? What's the greatest purpose?
I can't take the service, I can't take this virus
God will show me the way, help me break away from me
Help me save myself from me
Thank you