Текст песни 17 Club - RM Beholder

I don't even know how to live my life.
I'm the king,
This is my kingdom,
But it crumbles even if I try.
And I could be lying
But it doesn't seem any better
Cause I'm too shy.
To get out & feel better
I could go & dive
But I'd rather add on when I cry.
I'm surprised I've made it this far.
To go from LEGO's & feeling like a star,
To scars, guitar & driving a car.
I'm so tired of being tired.
I don't wanna go through the day
But time is slipping away.

Sometimes I don't even want to be me.
But I still hope I at least get 1 more week.
Am I asking for too much?
Maybe at least 1 more second?

Life is tiring but I'm still willing to wake up.
17 winters, so many ideas
But I've attempted mostly none.
The passion's still there
But how can I be so scared?
Life is unbearable,
I'm really full,
I'm through.
Of my parents thinking I'm not full.
Say I have no meat on my bones.
I don't even eat meat,
Then they say I eat nothing.
When almost every night,
I stuff my face to feel happy.
It's sad to think my family
Doesn't bring me happiness.
They've done so much
But they don't make me laugh
& give me stress.
I have to work everyday
Now even when I'm not at my best.
Which is never
But I still wish I could rest.
I don't want to go on,
But I know I'll be okay.
It's just these teenage school & work
Thoughts in my mind.
On the other side,
I know it shines.
But I'd rather hide,
& in your mind
Be put to the side.

Sometimes I don't even want to be me.
But I still hope I at least get 1 more week.
Am I asking for too much?
Maybe at least 1 more second?

Trust me, I suck
But I accept it.
Happier back then but knew nothing,
I guess there's still no difference.
Trust me,
I know I'll be okay.
But my future lies ahead,
Past dead.
18 now,
Scared of what's ahead.