Текст песни THE FINAL HEIR - RYAN F*CKING JIN

Ah, ah ah
Always feel the need to apologize, I'm always scared
The only place I seem unapologetic is in my lyrics
Only time that I can say wild shit and get away with it
No fear
Even now I see that there's a limit here
I think it's time to confess my sins
Put an end to demons preying on my bare skin
I feel them, always stare
Wanna be the greatest in my generation
Wanna be a shining star, stand among my peers
But my emotion holds me back
I understand that lots of stress and anger
Fends against my dreams, and that's a common error
I hope that someday I can overcome the hurdles standing in my way
I pray that I can lay down as the final heir
(What, ah)
As the final heir
I hope that someday I can overcome the hurdles standing in my way
I pray that I can lay down as the final heir
Final holder of the sins that are plaguing
My mind and my body, my desires feel so vacant
My brain is always searching for the person who can satisfy my needs
Sadly most times it's mistaken
So I left a couple girls with they heart shattered
And I left a couple friends in the past, live in shadows
Felt the social isolation taking over and I never fought it
So I came out all alone as an adult
Still surprised I made it out the closet, how'd I do it
Used to call shit gay as an insult, still amusing
Shit that I am not proud of haunts my day thoughts
Through the night, horror dreams fill my bedframe, fuck
Wish that I could
Shut my mind off but no suicide
Glad that I'm a healthy mind and I still wanna be alive
Only thing I'm grateful for, the rest of life is fucked
Working hard, I haven't had a break for myself in months
Soon as I turned 18, shit just hit the fan
I had to deal with problems in the fam
I had to learn to be a man
I had to hold my tears, go to work and bolden all my plans
I had to fall from privilege, on my feet I land
Now I'm always terrified of spending all my money
And it's funny
So ironic, fear is the only thing that's never taken from me
Feel some pain, tell myself tomorrow is tomorrow
Stay alive and make it there, that's become my motto
Sipping liquid confidence cause I need some to borrow
Numbing sorrow
So many long nights feeling sleepy, hollow
Don't have any footsteps set in front of me to follow
So I paved my own path, I'm just grinding through the music
Gotta do it
Meanwhile, full time worker, part time student
Living in the moment, but I wanna make a movement
But first I have to let of my pain and chains and nooses
Feeling OK for the first time in a while
But I'm looking back to find some memories that make me smile
Sifting through the sand, getting poked by hands
Seeing skeletons and haunting corpses haven't thought bout in a while
Took my ego down a notch, and I think it's required
Now my life is mild
Looking back on all the hot days, making me perspire
But that dark past make the future seem brighter
Life XP make me a better writer
Time to confess my sins
Put an end to demons preying on my bare skin
I feel them, always stare
Wanna be the greatest in my generation
Wanna be a shining star, stand among my peers
But my emotion holds me back
I understand that lots of stress and anger
Fends against my dreams, and that's a common error
Hope that someday I can overcome the hurdles standing in my way
I pray that I can lay down as the final heir
(What, ah)
As the final heir
(What, ah ah ah)
As the final heir
Hope that someday I can overcome the hurdles standing in my way
I pray that I can lay down as the final heir
(What, ah)
As the final heir