Текст песни RESTORE - blackwinterwells , midwxst

All this time i spent afraid of something that's not real
Tired of feeling sick when i wake up i need to take a
Stand back from all this i'm wounded
Can't stop from feeling so useless
I just need to keep looking ahead, ahead

Eyes keep falling down
It's so hard to shake a frown
I let everybody down
Why are you never around

I found myself
I can't even look myself in the mirror
Ay, sometimes i wish i didn't exist
I wish i could disappear
And i don't know what i should think
I drown myself out when i sing
Feel like i'm always in a dream
My thoughts come out and then they sink
Sit down with my thoughts and recollect i'm such a mess
I get the strangest feeling when i see you in my chest

And i already know i'm not your first choice or your best
But i want you to know that i am not like all the rest

Guess they know i can not disguise {?}
This feeling in my heart inside
I follow my thoughts late at night
Want you to stay; don't say goodbye
I'm sick and tired; i won't try
No tears are falling; i won't cry
Just disappointed at myself {?}
Just move on with my fucking life

All this time i spent afraid of something that's not real
Tired of feeling sick when i wake up i need to take a
Stand back from all this i'm wounded
Can't stop from feeling so useless
I just need to keep looking ahead, ahead
Stand back from all this i'm wounded
Can't stop from feeling so useless
I just need to keep looking ahead, ahead