Текст песни The Beautiful View of the Damned - Groovy Soul

So this is what rock bottom feel like

I found it very hard just to write this out
This is one of many things I don't talk about
I rarely use my voice so I barely make a sound
I only eat or hold my tongue when I use my mouth
I hang my head like a coat when I don't need it
When I lose faith, I feel with heat and I'm cold winded
Turn the bright sky back into dark times
Light the whole page with gasoline to make these rhymes
I'm sick of holding my tongue
When I keep it locked and loaded, it's like I'm holding a gun
When I let it loose, I'm hitting every daughter and son
This firepower hot enough to melt 17 suns
I'm always holding back because I'm scared of what to say
I never fit in and when I do I never stay
I'm always quiet I was taught to never show your pain
But when I show my wounds they never look at me the same, tell me who is to blame
Everything I worked for, I control now
Everything that I looked for, all the past now
I can't refrain from hiding pain cause the very same
People that taught me just how do it all went insane
It's like my shadow is my only companion
I only accept it cause myself I can't stand it
I'm more machine than a human I'm too ruthless
Spitting hard shit I'm surprised I'm not toothless
I'm sorry, I let this anger get the best of me
I'm the chosen one, I was told it's my destiny
It's in my blood that's I'm powerful in all ways
I destroyed all but that one I couldn't save
So now I'm nothing but a shell of my former self
Leaving grief and pain when that I take a step
I know now I'm not the same no more
By my self and all this power, I wander what's in store
With this mask on, looking at my pain is now earned
Filled with hate now, feeling like my lungs are all burned
I can't stop now