Текст песни separating the sex from the artist - handkerchief code

I think about that night in the dark
Behind the gas station
In your van
You told everyone else you'd be right back
And then you snuck me in
I would do anything to make you happy
I would give my whole world to be with you
My wallpaper has been us for years
Even though my smile is crooked
And I can't believe you messaged me back
I didn't expect to hear anything else
But the truth is
I was so flattered
That you'd even talk to me
Beyond posting our photo on your story
But the messages went back and fourth
You told me all about your girlfriend
And how it wasn't going well
I'd talk to you ever night
And you said that I was ready to take this to the next level
I can't move to L.A
I'm not out of high school yet
My friends don't know about us
My parents sure as hell don't
But your body does things to me
Even over the internet
When i heard you playing Minneapolis
I was dumbfounded
I was excited
And happy
And you sent me a message
Saying you'd love to meet
I thought it'd just be for a photo and small talk
But you had other plans
The show was coming up
We were facetiming all the time
You told me you loved me and i believed you
That was a mistake
I went to the show by myself
And had a fucking blast
You and I made contact and we met out back
You told the other guys you were just going to get some beer
But you took me with you
When you put the car and parked I smiled
I thought about your lyrics and how cool it was to be friends
The your hands found your way to my head
You kissed me
And I was shocked
I said we should do this
But you assured me nothing would go wrong
I put everything out there
I did my best
Through teat stained eyes
We made it through
And I knew
It was wrong
But I love him so much
And he's the only one I love
But the touch wasn't right
And it was so fucking tight
The rest of the night was a blur
When I got home all I could do was cry
You messaged me to see if I was alright
And I said yes
Because you were my hero
You were the only one i trusted
And all you did was fuck me over
Like everyone else
I tore the posters off my wall
And just cried
I didn't want to fuck you
You just lied
And now I'm nothing
I'm a shell
I'm nothing