Lyrics Speaking My Mind - Afari

I wanna be great, so I'm writing everyday, I try
To take it one day at a time
But I fall on my face I need grace 'cause I find myself
Sometimes in a place of anxiety
Tryna take control of my life and these
Rhymes I write just seem to be the only
Motivation I find 'cause I hate these assignments
I pray and I'm waiting in silence
Asking everyday am I wasting
My time with this finance? And I say
I keep my music on the side though, my essays
Have less pages than my notes, so am I lying?
This is what plays on my mind
And I've moved out finally it's about time
I'm surviving alright living in a new place with
One or two changes, couple new faces
Story of my life, only in a few pages
Think where I wanna be, I begin to lose patience
But I'm here, really It's mad when I think where I was at
Just a few years back when I really knew rap
Was the passion I had but I just didn't believe
That I could really do that
Now the past year I've been making new tracks
And I'm a changed man now they're saying 'who's that?'
Then I felt like I began to relapse
Like with every step forward is another two back
And I don't understand why I am where I am
Attacks in my mind and I find myself sad
At times, what's the plan? And it's funny how I rap
But I hardly even talk, I can't even share thoughts
Unless I put 'em in a song when my course has me bored
And I'd rather write a chorus than be writing a report
So I just forget it put my music in my ears
At this point I'm committed but the end ain't even near
I need a pair of glasses, I just can't see it clear
Can't see where I'm heading or the reason that I'm here
Much as I hate it, it's a bit too late to veer
Only choice is going through it I can't make it disappear
When I need release here I find peace of mind
When I almost feel like putting a piece to my mind
Or at least wanna cry 'cause it's peak at the time
To relieve what's inside I'm just speaking my mind
And I ain't really think of giving up in life
But sometimes I just ain't seeing right, I'm reminded
There's a reason I'm alive and as seasons go by
I'll be seeing that even more clearly defined
Just gotta keep on moving, the future is bright
God is on my side, He ain't through with this guy, nah
He always said these trials would arise
But He's overcome it all as I choose to rely
On His might, there's victory in sight and He's got me
And I'm the only one that can stop me