Lyrics Why - AppleHoule

Got nowhere to go but hey I just keep on crawlin
Lift my head, I see you're dead, wait now look who's fallen
I get up every morning just to feel the same ol' fright
God knows there's a heaven, but it's out of sight, out of sight
Even though we've walked a million miles, I can't find no light
I've gained some recognition but I lost my appetite
Doing things I wouldn't dare I swear to God you're in there
Nevermind I say that all the time, I think I've lost my mind

Learning from my past
Seeing all things fast
Killing myself every night thinking that it won't last
Fighting for my life and I still can't find who asked

Why you wanna know this I won't start a podcast?
Why you say my name?
Why you play this game?
Why you gotta come up with some shit that you can't tame?
Why you in my lane, bitch I found my own fame?
Why you always hating on me when I'm the one advocating?

Why you gotta hurt my shit when you have left me in the pit?
Why you come back saying jack when I'm the one listing facts?
Why you can't accept the truth you can't stay here this ain't no booth?
Why you need to put your pain on me?

Just let me breathe and be free
Can't escape I'm drowning in sorrow
I got no place to go tomorrow
I don't have my own life
Just a ticket out and a fight, ain't that right?

And I'll say it again, I can't fight the feds
Looking at those meds, feeling all kinda crazy up in my head
I got no place to go except, right to bed, ayy
Ooh, I'm feeling, I'm feeling kinda sad, but not so bad
When I'm off the fad, getting kinda mad
Not at my dad, but I love the lads

Oh, hey! It's you
The one who caused all my pain and suffering
Made me cry every night, didn't sleep so tight, never got it right, hey
Oh, here we go now
Getting kinda hype, we up past midnight
Blow like a bombsite, it's a cockfight, yeah

Sneezed on a Friday, sneezed for sorrow
Sneeze on a Saturday, joy tomorrow
Playing water polo, you call me Marco
Passing on the problems, bitch I ain't your cargo
Playing games with me like yours to borrow

Nothing can escape this dream
I'm in some damn elaborate scheme
Trapped in this, all you do is hiss
When I try and speak you just try and kiss

I don't take your sympathy, you still think I feel the symmetry
We never had it right, never got it tight
Always talked and ended in fights
Lost the connection, felt the depression, and drifted away
Can you stop this fight?

I keep repeating myself over and over again
But all you did was mess up my head
Even in bed, but I said never again
Look at me now! All better right?
Nah, I'm the same mess I left you with