Lyrics KiSS - Cloud-9

Here's an open letter to whoever it may concern
I wrote this in the dark so it may be hard to decipher at first
Plus well, I'm kinda drunk so my handwriting won't be the best
Nor will my mindset, but when you find this I'll have gotten rest
It was finally getting colder so I grabbed my favorite jacket
I was basically dancing as I made my way across the campus
And though I don't smoke, I bummed a Lucy off the roomie
So I lit it up and took a puff, hated the taste, but here's to us
This love is killing me! It's kind of like this nicotine
Addictive to a fault, but in the end I'm better off without it
It's toxic and that will never change at least (Oh I doubt it)
Regardless, it still brings me relief
'Cause all the pain inside deep in my mind
It seems to fade whenever you're in sight
And I feel uneasy as I realize what you mean to me
So I'm breaking this habit so the ends will justify the means
Hello? Girl, this better be an emergency
Well, since it's not you've got some nerve to end up calling me
Just lose my number. I'm tired of being burned asunder
By the fires that make me wonder
Those words I think that they stunned her
But I'm past the point of giving a damn
No more sitting around, I'm making a stand
Like a JoJo, not Mojo, so you know no monkey business. You let go
Of everything that you had and everything when you chose
To grab a hold of the past the door to the future is closed

And like lambs to the slaughter, I'm led down the altar
But I will never call her my wife
"Don't you cry since you're not hurt"
The words that I told her as she showed her true colors

Back in present day I'm here living my life
I've moved on from those times and now I'm chilling like ice
My heart is torn between these choices and I just can't decide
Between the money and these honeys how should I spend my time
They say they love me, but it's funny I see right through the lies
But with the henny that's up in me and these wonderful thighs
Oh, I don't give a damn. Call me Uncle Sam
'Cause I want you. Yes you. Do you know what we can do

"Nothing is like before" and it's better that way
I'm no longer trudging through every day
With you on my brain. I erased that pain
Or so I thought, yet it persists the same

Okay, now pause for a minute
Gotta make sure I took care of all my business
One bad decision is all it takes for us not to be forgiven
Can you live with it?
All the pain that you caused right before the biggest
Decision of your life. Wasting all of our time
Just give me a minute. Gotta make sure the stage is set for the finale
You didn't actually think I was clueless you were just hoping I'd be
So naïve and not think. "I believe your story"

Like a lamb to the slaughter, she's led down the altar
With the thought that I'll call her my wife
But nevermore. You're not who you pretend to be
The girl I loved was nothing but an act to deceive me
So I'm leaving. You didn't think I'd ever know

And like lambs to the slaughter, I'm led down the altar
But I will never call her my wife
"Don't you cry since you're not hurt"
The words that I told her as she showed her true colors
Like a hit dog that hollered, you're left at the altar
A sad bitch that wandered astray
All your sins crawl on your back as we've reached the last act
This play's almost over (It's almost over)