Lyrics Bad Habits - Cohen

I'm far too pessimistic
For someone so narcissistic
Unhealthy tension, bitter smiles and condescension
We keep romanticizing a sickness

I just can't keep myself happy
Or keep you happy with me
A nightmare keeps re-occurring
Where I suffocate slowly

I can't keep anyone pleased
I'm always scared that they'll leave
I can't keep anyone pleased
It just seems that...

The hands on the clock slow
Time stops as I sink below
Choking on the fear of losing you
Fearing that there's nothing I can do

Always back and forth on a whim these days
Should I try to leave or let you watch me deteriorate?
No, I need to kick you like the bad habit you are
'Cause every time you're close, you kick me down so hard
My hearts barely beating
I pray I'm only dreaming
Like the water that filled my lungs
You've been keeping me from breathing

(I can't keep anyone pleased
I'm always scared that they'll leave)

Help

Addicted to letting you hurt me
Killing myself just to keep you pleased
Down on my knees
Willing to bleed and appease
What more do you need?
You've already gotten the best of me