Lyrics purge - ConToRtion

What do you mean you don't wanna go to family therapy that's ridiculous
Maybe because every single day I wake up inside this house
And you tell me that you love me but I wanna get the fuck out
And I don't care if that hurts your fucking feelings you bitch
Maybe this anger comes from somewhere that isn't art or music
You wonder why I do the things I do then you prompt me to do them more
You say you worry about me then why you scared of the school for
What the fuck does any of that have to do with good parenting
I know I say curses a lot but you don't have to be overbearing

I fucking hate this house
Wish I could just get the fuck out
And even though sometimes I hate you
I just want to fucking love you
But you make it so damn hard when you know I'll be above you
One day I'll grow a height and at the cliff I will not shove you
Because even though you shoved me I already said I'll be above you
What the fuck does it mean when my brother says I am childish
That making music isn't potential to my future wild shit
Fuck you if you're related to me and you telling me that I'm wrong
Learn to grow the fuck up
Learn to listen to the songs
Learn to listen to my screaming
Learn to listen to my words
Cause one day just like them
I could be flying with the birds
I could be lying as I curse
I could be dying I'm immersed
I see these signs in reverse
I'm dying inside I diverge

I think it's time that I purge
I think it's time that I purge
I think it's time that I purge
I think it's time that I purge
I think it's time that I purge
I think it's time that I purge
I think it's time that I purge
I think it's time that I purge
I think it's time that I purge
Out all the anger frustration
I'm tired of being myself
I'm tired of you calling me Nathan
I'm tired of you making fun of me
I'm tired of acting it funnily
I'm tired of fronting so cunningly
Just wanna kill myself
I don't wanna exist
I don't wanna exist

Don't wanna end up like this
Wish I didn't hate you like this
Because at some point in my life you were something special to me
But somehow my destiny took care of that for me
I don't know what to do now because for months I've felt like I was hopeless
And it's not getting any better