Lyrics staring at the face of hate - ConToRtion

I don't know what I want anymore
I feel so empty
Why does it hurt
When I did it to myself
I wish my destiny
Could just fucking decide itself

Why don't you decide
Decide
Decide
Decide

Somehow my destiny gets in my way again
Everyone I fucking meet turns out to be less than a friend
Why do I hurt this way
Why do you feel so fake
Why do I hurt this way
Why do you feel so fake
I bleed through night and day
Bite through say what I want to say

Why don't you decide
Decide
Decide
Decide
Why don't you decide
Decide
Decide
Decide

I fucking hate my name
I wish you'd stop calling me by that name
I fucking hate that name
I wish you'd stop calling me by that name
I just want to kill myself
Before anyone figures out anything else
Erase myself from this earth or am I still in hell
I don't know where the fuck I am
Sometimes I really can't tell
The line between realities weak seams
Breaks as I loudly scream
I scream until nothings seen
Or obscene
Offensive words offensive screams
I wish you'd see the art and not just me
I hate this scene I hate this fiend
This hatred so deep inside of me

Decide
Decide
Decide
Decide
Why don't you decide
Decide
Decide
Decide

And it feels so fucking weak
My thoughts are better than my speech
I feel so fucking weak
Why does the outcome feel so bleak
Offensive words offensive screams
I wish you'd see the art and not just me
I hate this scene I hate this fiend
This hatred so deep inside of me

Me
Me
Me
Me
I don't fucking know
I don't fucking know
I don't fucking know
I don't fucking know

I can't do anything
They told me so
This world that I create
Is rolling into null
What is left for me
I cannot see
Left for me
Plant my seed