Lyrics Chapter 20 (Bonus Track) - Elijah Yo

Man Tell Me What Am I livin' For?
Tell Me what it means Means to Die
Do my purpose And my dreams collide
Or Will I be unsatisfied with myself when I leave this life
Its Only Chapter 20 tryna keep Dreams Alive
Im on the fence & Homie I could fall on Either Side
Careless cause I can't tell which Is the Greener Side
The Phenes Alive I meant It When I Read my rhymes
You listen and thats the only time I let you read my mind
The Reason Why,
Im so straight forward is because Lifes A
Bitch, & she dont care about the Penis Size
Man She'll ride you til' you break down wit nothin' lose
Tell you that you ain't shit then start fuckin' yah crew
She watchin' yah moves,
And thats all cool until' you pullup at yah
Cousin house & see that bitch is fuckin' him too
Man This is for the homies Stuck In the loop
On the way work before the sun risin' like its somethin' to do
Need you to prosper, Need you to understand theres alot more
To life then just workin' and makin' thru the week
But shit I know the struggle I know its uncool to be
Chasin' Yah dream while yah fam is relyin' on you to eat
Wishin' they knew the feelin' you get when you Chew A beat
Man Sometimes I feel like the music's Pursuin' Me
Its true Indeed
& I would never say Iv'e changed but its
Hard for old friends to understand the Newer Me
& You... Probly Wouldn't understand my life
& Sometimes man I can't stand My Life... Homie Am I Right
As A Man I Write, The Vivid Images In the mind of a Islander
Born In 97' These are the thoughts that iv'e piled up
Ever since A Youngin' when I was wilder
Back of the class Actin' Irrational Havin' to hold
Me back in after school Hot temper wish it was Milder
Can't recall how many times mama was Dialed Up
& That ws Til I got older & Got my style up
Had Abit of knowledge
Street Smart Slash book smart I
Probably shoulda went and applied for college
But how many people we pay homage to got there honours?
So Tell Me what it means Means to Die
& If my purpose & My dreams collide
Then Will Finally be satisfied wit livin' a life
Lavished Puttin' 5 Karats in my babygirl ear like big before he died
Or Will I be Pressured by all the lies
Will I be traumatized If I leave my
Boys behind & They callin' My phone
Knowin' I can't get back to them cause the tourin' Life
Is somethin' Iv'e been workin' for All my life
& If Im a baller like Every rapper I wanna be like
Then will I be More then right To Be thankin' Former Life
Will I be haunted if I had looked in my Daughter eyes
& I saw that 5 karats is somethin' she saw was normal like
I'll Be sittin' There like she ain't know thats not Normal Life
Thinkin' I fucked up if she ever saw all the fights
Me and her Mama about to have Over all them nights
I pray she understand that Gods power is More Then Life
So Why do I want it
Is it because I was Demoralized
Seein' these other kids gettin things that I wanted like
Couldn't afford the life that I wanted But i'll get it for sure
Always Knew that i'd be rich I just never knew what for
& While I whip this honda accord
I see you laughin' At my dreams Cause you ain't happy wit yours
Im tryna get up on the cover of forbes
Thats why from now Im cuttin' All
Ties wit people who ain't Act In Support
So tell me what it means to die
Do my purpose and my dreams collide
Or will I fail at My aspirations of where I wanna be Hitting Targets
Im nearly at 4 minutes feelin' Like im only gettin' started
Team strong who overlappin' Us
Probly nobody wit the music we stackin' Up
Its only chapter 20. you rappers ain't catchin' Up
& I Spit the realist shit to Wrap It
Up & thats wassup... Muthafucka...