Lyrics September 5th - Ka-Flame

Fuck it
I'm in my lab late at night fighting back these tears
Haven't spoken to my real dad in years
Just to make it clear I was reaching out for months
Never answered when I called never gave me a response
I ain't gone even front you don't know my life theme
I was sick almost died from that Covid-19
Temperature 107 had me shaking in my bed
If it wasn't for my wife I'd probably be dead
Gave me vitamins and meds laying by me scared
I was fading out can't even remember what was said
Momma calling me on video I tried to play it cool
Just think it all happened when our kids went to school
They got infected first but it did me the worst
Family of five we survived but it hurt
Reflecting on it all cause it could've went left
Dealing with the odds and the cards I was dealt got damn

See I don't think yall feel me ya know
14 days of ya know I was going thru this ordeal
Watching my wife run from room to room in our house
Making sure our children good making sure I'm good ya know
I could barely keep my eyes open at times I was fucked up
So I gotta shout my woman out ya know
For being there
She a real one

Lucky she had no symptoms nursed us back to health
Kids turned out fine I was certain it was death
That was creeping on my steps every night was out of breath
It was hard to breathe can't believe the way it kept
Trying to break me down felt I'm bout to drown
In just four days had a nigga losing pounds
Shout out to Charles shout out to Brian
Only two of my sisters called and checked on me out of nine
I know it's crazy my brothers M.I.A.
But might say I'm acting shady
Knowing I'm the oldest treat me like the coldest
But I ain't holding grudges I just never told it
The story has unfolded I record it then upload it
Dealing with depression felt I almost exploded
Was holding it in until I grabbed this black pen
Cutting ties from some fam and them so called friends
Once again

September 5th 2021
I mean I got to see who really there for me ya know I'm saying
My family gotta be the most disconnected dysfunctional
We only get together at funerals and shit ya know
I ain't saying I'm innocent
But we gotta check on each other more
Before it's too late