Lyrics Mourning Song - Kw1ll1s

Why did you wanna die
See I wanted you alive
But I guess what I wanted wasn't enough for you to survive
I guess I couldn't provide
Couldn't be your protector
God why couldn't I protect her
Am I lying when I lecture women on how I would be there for them in their time of need
If there were three thousand women here she would be my nominee
I'm vomiting into the toilet, blood
Simply trying to breathe
The longer I'm away from you
Me and death has got a beef
How can you get hit by a car and not die
But she can pop a couple pills and now she's un-alive
I'm kinda mad at her to be for real
She's just selfish
She wasn't thinking bout anyone else before she left us
This isn't how I thought Id be walking you down the isle
I miss everything about you
Especially your smile
Why did you leave
I guess I've been selfish too
Cause I'm feeling like its me

This is stupid for me to have these thoughts
Is it a bad lead
Ought to find a path leading me to just a bit more happiness
Cause of these piss poor happenings
I've been left in a daze
Punching walls
Flipping mattresses
I cant go on
Because I love you so much
Its hard to speak of you in the past tense
Knowing you're gone
This isn't a mourning song
Because at night
I'm torn and bawled (balled) like that picture of your face that Id drawn and lost