Lyrics Downturn - LiL Xtra

Back to the wall and the ceilings falling
I wanna leave but the car keeps stalling
I hear your screams I hear it all heard you
The first time that you called

Me a liar I deserve
To Clip my wings and fall to earth
Hope I fall from high enough
That I can burn and burn and burn and burn

I′ve spent so long amongst the soil
Watch you smoking pills off foil
How the hell did we get here
We used to be so clear of mind

Block your number keep you distant
Spare the rod and stay consistent
Spoiled all our plans the second
I said let's just go get high

Went and ruined my whole life
Went and ruined my best friend
Fucking wasted all my time and
Ruined everything again

I try not to think about it these days
Staying high getting by tryna get paid
Trying not to scream but I′m in pain
Trying not to think of death as an embrace
Try to think of anything but your face
And the hurt when you heard you're being replaced

Feels like I might pop from the pressure
Got drunk, made a call, hung up thought better
I've spent so long beneath the mire
Left the frying pan for fire
How the hell did we get here
I used to care about it all

Now we hurt so fucking much
Break my heart and split my Dutch
Pack it tight and pray to god
That we can make it through the fall

Went and ruined my whole life
Went and ruined my best friend
Fucking wasted all my time and
Ruined everything again

I sat in the back seat of a broken down
Taurus High as fuck and sad that life was over I used your words against you
I used your dreams against you

And what did I gain?
Did I gain clarity or peace or understanding?
Or did I just convince myself
That you were the root of all my problems?

But in the end I′ve always known I′m Broken
And I probably won't improve
But hey, I here′s to hoping
Maybe one day we can grow
One day I might not be alone
One day I might not feel I'm taking up space
And finally feel at home
I finally feel at home
I finally feel at home
I finally feel at home
When I′m chalked out on the asphalt Let me go

Went and ruined my whole life
Went and ruined my best friend
Fucking wasted all my time and
Ruined everything again