Lyrics Depreshmode - Lily Kershaw

I've been lookin' for my own personal Jesus
Somethin' I could believe in
A God of my understandin'
A soft place for landin'
Is there anybody out there
Who can tell me where we go, and why I am scared?

Is there an action to break this curse
And free me while I'm still here on earth?
'Cause I've been livin' in mournin'
I can't make it go away
Don't know how long this time it'll stay
Is the laughin' a warnin'?
Is the laughin' a warnin'?

I've seen all sides of my demons
Shadow work takes believin'
One sits in the corner and says sadly
Go on, do it, I love you madly

But in that action lies a curse, and I know I'd miss the Earth
But it just keeps on naggin'
I can't make it go away, don't know how long this time it'll stay
It just keeps on laughin'
It just keeps on laughin'

Saw the finest minds of my generation
Get high on their devastation
Watched the darkness close in slowly
Now they sleepwalk past me

And in that action lies the end, God, I wish I had a friend
But I know they're all sleepin'
And I can't make it go away, don't know how long this time it'll stay
It just keeps on laughin'
Do you hear the laughin'?