Lyrics Never Had The Balls - Rex Orange County

I was lost, felt nothing at all but
I'm coming back now, yeah, I'm in the background
No need to react now that everything's done (but let me say)
I thought it would be simple enough
And I had to grow up
Just to learn all the ways that it's not
But I never thought that I'd wanna call it quits in my whole life
I never aimed to feel confused, I blame myself to tell the truth
But now I know that everything's hard when you're living in the dark
And you don't even wanna see it through
If that had to be the way I'd be feeling for days
And I knew it back then, I probably wouldn't do it
But I never got the chance to tell you
I never had the balls to tell you
No, I never had the balls to tell you
I did everything that I could, but still, I was helpless (so helpless)
I shouldn't waste my precious time
On anybody living off of mine
And now I know that things are getting better
I can live like this forever
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
When I found my own way out
Was to open my mouth and be honest
I had to go and do it, yeah
"This could be the best decision that you ever make
Please, don't be afraid", she reassures me
I know it's hard to play pretend
I promise you it's due to end
And winners never quit, you know, so quitters never win
(It's only getting better now for you)
I'm your man if you're looking for good times
Feel amazing and I'm on my way home
Yeah, I'm finally in the zone
I heard the word "goodbye" and felt surprised
That I wasn't even sad in the slightest
My mind was made up, but if I had to live a life
Only being polite, I'd be giving in
I'm never gonna do it
I'll never get the chance to tell you
I never had the balls to tell you
No, I never had the balls to tell you now
Balls to tell you
Balls to tell you
I never got the chance to tell you (no)
Never had the balls to tell you
Balls to tell you
But I never got the chance to tell you (no)
Never had the balls to tell you (I didn't)
Balls to tell you