Текст песни I'll Take Both - Better Promises

I can't love you
And I'm not sure if it's you or me
It's most likely me
I tend to ruin everything
I've been thinking again about who I want to be
And unfortunately you're not in the long term plan
Cause nothing's in my long term plans
Half of my days I have to fight the demons in my head
Just to will myself to get out of bed
Never knowing for sure if the positives of being alive
Will outweigh the negatives of being dead
I love my family and friends Just enough
What would my brothers think of me if I just gave up?

I have no clue as to what I'm gonna do in the future
I bet everything on a horse that died on the first corner
I'm never going to be able to move on
Because that would require me to
(Commit to something in my mind) make up my mind
I have trouble making small choices
Like do I want whiskey or rum in my coke
I guess I'll take both