Текст песни HAPPY - Body Prison

Why can't I comprehend the way I am

Because I'm sinking deeper into my own psyche
Chasing feelings that won't ever fulfil me
And yet I'm still here
Chasing them Craving for that fixation
That rush, that high
The next obsession to take a hold of me
I fucking need it
I'm too dependent on this synthetic dopamine
That I don't know If I can live without it

I need it to function
I need this obsession I need it for a sense of purpose
Without it I feel so empty like there's nothing hear for me
I'm stuck looping over thinking what the fuck is even wrong with me
Stop looking at and judging me
I'm no different from you or anyone
So get this spotlight the fuck away from me

Explain to me are my even thoughts real?
Or is this all just some way that I've been hard-wired to feel?
I'm too dependent on this synthetic dopamine that it controls my will
Yeah, And I let it GROW
Just let me rot
Synthetic dopamine addiction take me higher keep me there
Blissful euphoria I can't bear being so low without you
Take me higher

I've never been anything without this

Will you take me higher blissful euphoria?
Will you take me higher o blissful euphoria
Will you take me higher

I still don't understand myself
Someone explain to me were my thoughts ever real?
Or has this all just been some way that I've been hard-wired to feel?
I'm so dependent on this synthetic dopamine
I can't tell if my mind betrays me
Is this really my reality
Is the really the world before me
That makes me happy?

I crave it like a rabid dog frothing from the mouth
And if I don't get it
I gnaw my nails until their bleeding stumps
I can't function without the buzz

I'm lost in losing myself
I'm lost and losing myself