Текст песни Suicide! - ConToRtion

Chug my biotin
I just wanna look like a girl for you
Sometimes I cannot tell if I came from hell
Or I was born on this earth just as myself
Why do I keep falling after I fell
Why do I feel like I wanna kill myself
When I'm around you my heart just swells
But in a month or two it'll be farewell
I cannot tell
If the world just hates me or my fate bleeds onto my sketch paper
I won't feel good later
I won't feel good later

I'm having crisis identity
I really just hate this part of me
I wish you'd see how thick that I bleed
So when you know me well you don't have to be
Hurt so bad by my lack of trust
My lack of care lack of given fucks
I don't know who else could be the right one but you're pretty cool and I like you a lot
I'm having crisis identity
I really just hate this part of me
I wish you'd see how thick that I bleed
So when you know me well you don't have to be
Hurt so bad by my lack of trust
My lack of care lack of given fucks
I don't know who else could be the right one but you're pretty cool and I like you a lot

I'm gonna sip some bleach
Go fuck yourself
Fuck relationships
Fuck your mental health
I don't care about anybody else
Enough to feel inclined to fucking help
Fuck me right hope I burn in hell
I've been doing that for quite a while
Cause I am on earth but also in hell
Because my existence isn't worth a cell
Fuck my heart I wanna make art
But I cannot start without feeling bad
Making music's tearing me apart
But I love it so feels so good to restart
I don't wanna be like those before me
I'll make a change I will start recording
All the history inside of me feels so good to mentally flee
Dead inside heaven I'm feeling like I am seven
Because I'm stupid as shit but not as stupid as Devin
Shopping at seven eleven this for the show that I'm set in
I make the show and the set and all the people I reckon

Why do I keep falling after I fell
Why do I feel like I wanna kill myself
When I'm around you my heart just swells
But in a month or two it'll be farewell
I cannot tell
If the world just hates me or my fate bleeds onto my sketch paper
I won't feel good later
I won't feel good later

I'm having crisis identity
I really just hate this part of me
I wish you'd see how thick that I bleed
So when you know me well you don't have to be
Hurt so bad by my lack of trust
My lack of care lack of given fucks
I don't know who else could be the right one but you're pretty cool and I like you a lot
I'm having crisis identity
I really just hate this part of me
I wish you'd see how thick that I bleed
So when you know me well you don't have to be
Hurt so bad by my lack of trust
My lack of care lack of given fucks
I don't know who else could be the right one but you're pretty cool and I like you a lot

If I was alive
I think I'd feel something
I think I'm fucking dead
Because I feel nothing
If I was alive
I think I'd feel nothing
I think I'm fucking alive
Because I feel nothing