HOPELESS

Aye
I'm too busy numbing pain to even talk to ya
Lately life has been unfair is just all too familiar
I'm just tryna change my ways, change myself
I don't recognize the man I'm seeing
In the mirror
Aye
Fog it up and draw a smile
Now it's getting clearer
Like a picture
More you stare
The more it makes sense to ya
Appreciate from far away
How do you admire
So I move close to find the blemishes
Beyond desires
Aye
Why I do this to myself
Aye, aye
Mental blows below the belt
Aye, aye
You ain't like nobody else
Aye
Why I do this to myself
I been up like way too long
Now I'm tryna write this song
I been tryna do my shit
Monkey Luffy, money long
Spent too long, the underdog
Now I'm tryna find my way
Aye, aye

I been up late nights cuz I don't sleep
I been up real late, baby, passed three
I been doing everything to help me gain peace
I been doing everything and still I can't sleep
I been up late nights cuz I don't sleep
I been up real late, baby, passed three
I been doing everything to help me gain peace
I been doing everything and still I can't sleep

I don't care where I'm going, where I been, or where I'm bout to be
I don't have time or patience for finding out what I believe
They say to stop and breathe
They think they might know everything
You all just rushing me, I can't be part of your machine
Cuz I shut it off
Come back when I'm alone
I'm sorry when you need me, I won't pick up the phone
Cuz I'm not working for it
I don't know why I'm working
But I just keep hustling cuz they say that it will be worth it
I just wanna know how close I am to dying
I'f I said I have more time to give
I feel like I'd be lying
Losing count of days going by cuz you know I'm tired
Now I'm tired and I'm hopeless
Now you know I'm hopeless
I guess it's easy having no friends
Now you know I'm hopeless