Текст песни What Am I Doing - LGN

See that why niggas wanna fight you
They're not fighting you... they are fighting ideology...
Hahahaha
Nigga shut the fuck up
Nigga said they fighting ideology

What am I doing
Million dollar fuckin question
What am I pursuing
But by this time this life is over
Hope to have an answer
I'm starting something new
Call me a fuckin transfer
Last year I wanted clarity
That 20/20
I like it like that; Cardi Bad Bunny
Mind so fuckin precious
My mental never clear
Figured the music the perfect place to share
Yeah

Thinking mans world
So what on your mind
Go too much to accomplish
With not enough time
I can't ever sleep
I be we wide awake
Fuck contemplating fitting in when you custom-made
Yeah, Playing with that grey matter's so much pressure
Like how you go from being happy to feeling depression
The same way you go from winning to loosing it all
The same way I rather struggle than see Brenda stressin
Thinkin back on it now we grew up way too fast
And rentals would blame it all on the technology
But as we getting older and we address the trauma
Its prolly cuz the parents didn't offer us apologies
Yeah, but that's a besides the point kid what's on yo mind
The idea that being idle puts me behind
The blinding fact that my past is effectin my future
That's the kinda wound you can fix with a simple suture
Wanna talk about the good but never the trauma
Like this shit ain't get passed down from our mothers and fathers
They don't wanna acknowledge
You know they soon forgetful
Cuz when you being too honest
They say it's disrespectful
And I was taught men could never make mistakes
And every time I step outside i know my life's at stake
Wondering if this'll be my last
That why I'm always smilin'
Man I use it as a mask
Yeah

Tryna find my voice been the hardest thing
I think I found it twice
First when I dealing with bullying back at Arabia Mountain
The other was in Cali, Drexel act like I had changed overnight, uh
Guns out, face down cuz I fit a description
If I told you the story, my nigga you'd think it's fiction
Torrance PD why I can never sleep
Dreams stay turnin' to nightmares
Shout out to Meek
I get lost in my own head cuz I can never settle
Can't lose myself like that man with them double letters
I can't hear them hatin' niggas speakin' at whisper
But hate on meee Scot[t] free like you Jack's sister (Ha)
Over your head, Genius will help you out
Not that conceited so to diss you I won't slow it down
I got the motto tatted on me but you know its hidden
Been like that since i was born
Cuz senior had it written
Wondering if my we used to talks finally settled
A lotta finger pointing'
The pot and the fuckin kettle
Prolly tried to replace me
Cant even be mad
But then again you can't replace some shit you never had
Used to think that my relationship just wouldn't last
Both head strong so arguing is kinda frightening
Protection my heart
I can't repeat the past
That's why it's called falling in love and not gently reclining
'03 Bonnie and Clyde man this shit forever
Told you baby I got you and me versus whomever
Love doesn't see with eyes but rather the mind
Guess that nigga Cupid making all these matches blind
When I'm DC shit don't get much better
Honestly girl, it's a struggle keepin it together
Gotchu in one ear askin' me what's on my mind
Rejectin' shorties in my other at the same time sayin...
I just wanna rock you, all night long

Sometime you just say what's on your mind

Niggas thought that I was done
Man this shit ain't over
We back it again like it's some leftovers
But I finish what I started
On these beats I float
I Call myself the kid cuz what else is a baby GOAT, hmm
Maybe not in music
But in life nigga I'm winning
Daring to be great told I y'all niggas it was hidden
Got House of Bijan makin me custom loafers
Nic and Roxy said they be ready early October
I bet you niggas really don't know shit about it
Yall keep thinkin' that the real drip is balenciaga
Imma let her think that real drip Fasion Nova
Until I put her onto Oscar's now she wanna meet the owner
The wine game got me really actin up
Germans be sending me cases
Cuz i cant get enough
And one didn't make it through customs though
That's tragic
It's all good
Cuz in the wine game sip happens, nigga
Everything I do is mad strategic
That's why so many people wonder what the fuck I'm thinking
Not tryna be perfect man that shits irrational
Not tryna fit witchu in man that shit is laughable
Yeah, my biggest fear has to be discontentment
Imagine a life where people only showed you resentment
Imagine walking through life knowing you have so much to offer
But then when you tell your story they don't believe you're the author
Give you layer after layer im the cake boss
Protect my peace tryna be Melo, give Lavar a call
My generation be so focused on the gender scuffles
In the end my nigga we all deserve to be cuddled
Imma keep kickin like my namesake in '63
That went over her H.E.A... girl I'll bring the D
Man
You shoulda seen 'em when a nigga I went Ivy
Was blinded by the hoes Stevie had to guide me, but
You ever think about it man dating really funny,
Put the chocolate in the egg
And y'all some Easter Bunnies
But then you break up and mad cuz y'all could never grow
And now somebody else is reaping everything you sewed
But life goes on; said this shit in the beginning
Born in down Atlanta but I'm really Philly
Dragon til I die
Man not ashamed to 'mit it
Diploma cost me enough
Nigga I gotta get it
Really hope my younger brother understands
That at my nigga some point you really gotta be a man
Not ever saying that we won't be standin there witchu
But If I'm being honest man this cannot continue
The longest song I've ever done
Just sharing' whats been on my mind
Wishin i could tell you more
But like I said not enough time
Up late cuz a nigga really need some peace
She start an argument thinkin it'll help me sleep

You like this toxic shit and I start to see
Shit gotchu turned on; no Malcom and Marie... then she said to me

This is how it is
You just gotta trust
Give you what you need
I do this shit for us
This is how it is
This is how it goes
I want you in control
I want in my soul
Want you to make me whole