Текст песни Chaos - Mesus

It, it's just different
Upset the established order
Everything becomes chaos
I'm an agent of chaos
Oh, and you know the thing about chaos

I'm gonna keep it a hundred, I feel like I'm being hunted
So paranoid you would think I was blunted
I'm hearing voices that's coming from under my bed
In my head and I'm under the covers, uh-whut
Take out the sheets and the first thing I see
Is these shadows in every direction
Know they from hell in fact
Threw out the welcome mat
But they keep coming back
Pressing my chest in
What you know about sleep paralysis? (Huh)
Promise you, I don't imagine this (no)
Promise, your ass couldn't handle this
Who would've known as long as I manage this
Nah-nah-nah-no
You dealin' with typical shit
I'm over here dealing with slitting my wrist
An that's just the damn tip of this shit, sick of this sh

They don't know what's coming next from me (don't)
They don't know what to expect from me (whoa)
I don't know what you expect from me (I don't)
I don't know why you keep testing me (I don't)
Keep saying my name is blasphemy (Mesus)
Keep saying God won't keep blessing me (Jesus)
Destiny, this what it has to be
Guess I'll be causin' some chaos, like aye-aye

I'm gonna keep it a thousand, I ain't alone in this house
Walk out a room, but I keep hearing shouting
And I'ma need more than a couch and a counselor
I need a bouncer, rah!
But since you know everything
An' you think that my depression
No sweat, then okay, let me ask you a question
How many times in your life have you seen a knife and thought suicide was doin' right, so end it, huh?
I'm guessing, nah
Like not even once
Me, it's a ton
Like 30 a month
Like everyday
You think this a game?
You think this shit fun?
Huh-huh-huh?
Fuck you know 'bout fightin' for your life, for your whole life
But if you know 'bout that, then know that I'm with you
An' know that this healing 'aight
You feeling me right?

They don't know what's coming next from me (don't)
They don't know what to expect from me (whoa)
I don't know what you expect from me (I don't)
I don't know why you keep testing me (I don't)
Keep saying my name is blasphemy (Mesus)
Keep saying God won't keep blessing me (Jesus)
Destiny, this what it has to be
Guess I'll be causin' some chaos, like aye-aye

I'm gonna keep it a milli', nobody, really, man, really
Y'all silly, killing me, ha-ha
You killing me
I'm gonna climb in my head and dead
All of these voices that's talking shit
I mean it literally, I'm the epitome of pure insanity
You can get rid of me
But you can't handle me
I look like a kid but you ain't gon' mismanage me
Are you dumb motherfuckers understanding me?
Sorry, got out the wrong side of bed today
Sorry, I forgot to take my meds today
Sorry, that makes a decade now
Well, what's a doctor know?
When I'm jotting rhymes on doctor's notes
Woo-woo
Guess its 'bout time to go
I'm out of breath, fuck, I need cardio
But what good is breathin', if you don't believe there's a reason?
I'm outta here, adios

They don't know what's coming next for me!
Oh shit!