Текст песни Cold nights (Recurring cycle) - Midas

Cold nights
They say don't last a while
But
Every night
The temperature go down yeah
Cold nights
They say don't last a while
But
Every night yeah
It go down yeah

It feel like no one understanding me
Trapped in the city
And musically I'm not fitting
Ain't got no better half of me
But I gotta understand
That do not make me half of me
Was 17
Eyes had a gleam
Now everything is grey
Except these songs I made
Time go by and friendships fade
Lost myself
I wasn't made
To be in the cold
Wasn't prepared for all the strife you face once you getting old
Well I was told by my dad
But you know how that shit goes
Controlling my ego
I've sworn
When we talked about our dreams inside that dorm
Eyes were teary
Wasn't aware of the storm
That was brewing
But these dreams I'm pursuing
Though stress accumulating
Feel like I don't belong anywhere
Or with anyone
He took the knife I stabbed his back with
Used it to stab mine
Who am I to judge this shit
I'm the reason we not fine
The pen the reason I keep going
Without it, I can't find
Tell my mom I kept trying
If my demons end up thriving
Sometimes this city be so venomous
I'm not looking for nobody forgiveness
But my betterment
Gonna be my focus
I told myself
If I improve my physical
Problems would fade like a miracle
I guess fear is a mirror though

Cold nights are a recurring cycle
Guess I need to see what I know
It gets harder once you grow old
My fault

Winter comes I won't freeze
I'm focused on my side
Nobody I don't need
I don't even need goodbyes
I guess everybody tries till it's too hard to decide
What you wanna do
My fault

Cold nights are a recurring cycle
Guess I need to see what I know
It gets harder once you grow old
My fault

Loves an illusion only when it isn't real
The bad things that you do not excuse how bad you feel
I'll blame it on the youth
And how dumb we can be
But can't be running from the truth
Just to soothe my conscience for peace
Cause you know I had to choose
And I chose who I wanna be
Disregarding how hard I fought during the cold and lonely nights
To be someone that stays nice
No matter if I live in strife
To constantly reach new heights
And to always do what's right
Tears accumulate
Making the page wet
Now the ink fading away
Tearing up paper
I write on once mistakes are already made
Losing friends
And losing faith
The last two years have been so rough
Seeing my person worsen
In my family eyes
The worst thing

Cold nights are a recurring cycle
Guess I need to see what I know
It gets harder once you grow old
My fault

Winter comes I won't freeze
I'm focused on my side
Nobody I don't need
I don't even need goodbyes
I guess everybody tries till it's too hard to decide
What you wanna do
My fault

Cold nights are a recurring cycle
Guess I need to see what I know
It gets harder once you grow old
My fault

Times always on my mind
I just wanna runaway
My city got toxins everyone round me got used to
Me I left then came back few years later
I ain't have a clue
But they were there right in my face
But I'm used to find a way
To always get my way
Guess I need to meditate
On what happened
Counting homies on my fingers
And one hand
Shit, what's happening?
Used to be the rubber band
Holding the hair strands
Used to have pictures of us
Now nothing's on my nightstand
Was pictured as someone looking for lust
One night stands
They know I got hurt
And lost the trust
But I'm gon fight man
I'm changing meanings
Aim for the top
It's fight and flight now
Wasn't gon tell me to my face
Demeaning but I'll write down

Everything inside
Whether it's ugly or inspiring
I can't blame others when anxiety got me spiraling
Looking for a pearl in the deep ocean got me drowning
Still hopeful for the future
Even when myself I'm doubting

Cold nights are a recurring cycle
Guess I need to see what I know
It gets harder once you grow old
My fault

Winter comes I won't freeze
I'm focused on my side
Nobody I don't need
I don't even need goodbyes
I guess everybody tries till it's too hard to decide
What you wanna do
My fault

Cold nights are a recurring cycle
Guess I need to see what I know
It gets harder once you grow old
My fault