Текст песни I Still Hate Myself - Shius

I still hate myself, although I'm trying to change
See the hope in everything but still I can't seem to chase
This fucking feeling away, there are memories that stop me
All my self worth tied up, in this music that makes me
Give me a sense of identity, a place to belong
Give me a worth tied to nothing, but these sounds in my songs
I am rapping for no one, but these demons in my mind
I will live for validation, 'til it's time to say goodbye

When the song is all said and done
By the time my chapter closes
By the time everyone's already moved on
I'll still hate myself
I'll still hate myself
I still hate myself

All the time, preaching like I've seen the light
In a place where darkness only swallows hope, I cannot see
Any reason given at ALL why they would look up to me
...Why would you look up to me
Why would you look up to me

When the song is all said and done
By the time my chapter closes
By the time everyone's already moved on
I'll still hate myself
I'll still hate myself
I still hate myself

There is love here I know it, although I can't seem to reach
The things I want to be, to know what I misunderstood
Become a better me, become what I know I should
In the depths of this depression, keep in hope as I stood
Crabs in buckets crawling, their pinchers bringing me down
There's no hope for me here, unless I wear my own crown
Take initiative, live if only for yourself
When the time comes to rise, will I fight for my life

I know that I can love, I just can't love myself
All this hate that surrounds me, shadows cast on my mind
When I have nowhere to run, I can only fight
I can only fight
But

When the song is all said and done
By the time my chapter closes
By the time everyone's already moved on
I'll still hate myself
I'll still hate myself
I still hate myself