Текст песни Maniac - conscience

This is like the fifth time we broke up
Ask me what′s wrong, I would tell you, but I'll choke up
They tell me she ain′t good for me, "It's best you let her go, son"
But they don't really know us
Lord knows how many times I′ve cried up on the sofa
Ever since the day we met, how many tears my pillow′s soaked up
A house, kids, you know that dream we always spoke of?
Is now a nightmare, and I still haven't woke up

I put you first, even through the times when it hurt
That time you cheated, you cried and pleaded
"We could still make it work"
I forgave you knowing damn well you still would go do your dirt
Sure enough, forgiveness started feeling like it′s a curse
I pushed away my family, my friends, I would blow up
If they said that you were bad for me to them
Feel my sanity is thin, so many cracks in me within
But when I leave, you pull me right back in

And I know that you'll break me again
I′m pretty sure I know how this ends
You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh
What do you want from me?
I can′t believe you made me believe
Believing you I'm all that you need
You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh
What do you want from me?
What do you want from me?

I pick up the pieces when I should drop it and leave it
And I know damn well, but somehow I find a reason
To keep you here in my life, put our love on ice
Take that knife out my back and someday make you my wife
I know with love comes a fight, but I′m battered and bruised
And I′ve been left in a ditch without my wallet or shoes
My friends think that I'm stupid, they think I love the abuse
And honestly, I can′t say 'cause I′m fucking confused

Do I have something to prove? Tell me, what is the use?
Why have I always defended you and everything that you do?
I'd blame it all on myself, I deserve what you put me through
Excuses I made for you convinced me that that′s the truth
I give my heart, you drop it, pick it back up, and you throw it
Give it back, you stomp it, need to stop, but I don't know when
I don't know when
You′ve broken me

And I know that you′ll break me again
I'm pretty sure I know how this ends
You got me feeling like I′m a maniac, oh
What do you want from me?
I can't believe you made me believe
Believing you I′m all that you need
You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh
What do you want from me?
What do you want from me?

A little messed up, a little insecure
Just ′cause the way you look
You take the air right out my lungs
Call me out, the same old story
I say no, but girl you know me
I'm in love with the way you break my heart

And I know that you'll break me again
I′m pretty sure I know how this ends
You got me feeling like I′m a maniac, oh
What do you want from me?
I can't believe you made me believe
Believing you I′m all that you need
You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh
What do you want from me?
What do you want from me?