Текст песни sitting on the sun - haemby

I do not know where I am going
I do not know how I am flowing
All that I know is I'm stuck in this life
And the only way out is to keep on growing
I'm really the problem with my own deep thoughts
And when I try to run I just freeze up
Cuz I do not know what to do with myself
Except to keep living in spite of myself

And I wake up in places I can't call home
It's like when I sleep I just go off the dome
I'm pushing myself just to be with you all
But I know I think better when I'm all alone
And I've tried to confide in you more than once
I've laid in your chair but I ain't got the funds
I'm really the worst when it comes down to talking
So I just stay quiet and we keep on walking

I feel like I was never meant to be heard
I feel like my problems are just like the herds
Everyone's heard them, again and again
I know I'm in debt, so I run to my den
That I know I could run to and no one complains
So, no one would have to go through all my pain
That doesn't mean I don't wanna be close to you
That is just me not trying to lose you

I run and I dash you can call me Icarus
Promise you no one will notice the difference
Yea, that's my problem, it's part of my ignorance
Trying my hardest gets me in the precipice
I burnt myself up and I turn into ashes
I do not try to give viable passes
I'm bold when I push back all your advances
In my mind I give myself too many chances like

Blowing up do you see the change
Sitting on the sun so far away
You know it hurts when I wanna stay
But you love it when I'm the same

I sit on the sun to catch where I'm going
And when I fly high I lose my emotions
I can't tell you my left from my right
And when I come down, you say I'm alright
But my thoughts seems so milky
Way out of reach
My world is so spun
But I can't even teach
I hurts me like hell when I run from the pack
But I trust you won't find me until I come back, it's like

Burning up give me a heart attack
All alone I can't take it back
Zero gravity this world insane
Cuz you love it when I'm in pain

My only desire
Is to fix this mess by running through the fire
Lemme go higher
Only looking up not to anything prior
No I'll never retire
I ain't thinking bout last night
Bout last month
Bout the last fight I had
With the girl I think will be the last one I'll ever have

Cuz I'm on a mission now leave me alone
Is it impossible to let it all go
Sorry if you wanted to have a good time
I'm tryna get through so stay off my grind

Get close to me and watch it all burn
Only go forward no twist no turns
Cuz I sit on the sun
I eat the heat baby
Like Miami I'm coming up
Yea baby I'm coming up

Blowing up do you see the change
Sitting on the sun so far away
You know it hurts when I wanna stay
But you love it when I'm the same

I sit on the sun to catch where I'm going
And when I fly high I lose my emotions
I can't tell you my left from my right
And when I come down, you say I'm alright
But my thoughts seems so milky
Way out of reach
My world is so spun
But I can't even teach
I hurts me like hell when I run from the pack
But I trust you won't find me until I come back, it's like

Burning up give me a heart attack
All alone I can't take it back
Zero gravity this world insane
Cuz you love it when I'm in pain