Lyrics Eyes Of Pain - Lil JJ Reynolds

Before Rap, I was going insane, was in so much pain
Dealing with my shame 'that I couldn't maintain
I couldn't let go, what was stopping my growth
Cause I was dealing with these thoughts, inside, nobody knows
What 'I'm feeling inside, what's building, inside
The truth feels like a lie, cause I've been dealing with lies, my entire life
You can see the pain in my eyes
These eyes of pain
Behind the brain, is all filled up with evil thoughts, that I've never said
Until I felt the rage, explode, inside my head
Demise in my body, that's about to drop dead
After spending all the years, living on the edge
I was different from the others that were around me
I got nervous from the stares, so I kept my head down
With a cloud over me, that's when I started to cry
In the rain of shame, 'thru my eyes of pain

All these tears that fall down, from these eyes
Is my pain, that I've been feeling inside
Tell me, how long 'can I stay strong?
Before I lose control 'with these eyes of pain

Before pain, I was sane, living life, but it felt the same
When I was looking for a change 'to stay in my lane
Cause I was lost, inside, after my demons came
They started calling my name, until my brain was drained out
That's when I started going insane, and lost hope in everything
While trying to fight 'thru this pain, and felt close to the end of my life
How many years 'I got?
I wouldn't know, until I roll the dice, before I stop breathing
For me to close my eyes, and see the pain 'in the eyes of the people
That were mourning with pain
Wishing I came back to life
As if 'they cared about me, when I was alive, they were never, by my side
It's crazy 'how people start caring, after you die
That's when they make up the lies
That's why the rain won't stop, as I continue making tear drops
In this rain of shame, right 'thru my eyes of pain, ugh

All these tears that fall down, from these eyes
Is my pain, that I've been feeling inside
Tell me, how long 'can I stay strong?
Before I lose control 'with these eyes of pain

Despite everything 'I went thru, I overcame
'Thru all the odds, that kept making fun of my pain
And my disability brain, that was covered 'in shame
Cause it was broken and tamed, and I never felt the same
I've always wanted some change, but all I had was a dollar bill
For a prescription refill 'to get pills
Was ill for so long, I wanted to kill my own body, for good
Man the struggle is real
It's driving me insane, please lord, take the wheel
Before I crash my skills, that were keeping me alive
But still I'm stuck, inside, but I'd rather live inside myself
Than living here, where I can't survive
'Thru all this money corruption, that's effecting our lives
We're just skeletons, about to get buried 'alive
Too many demons, spreading flames 'in this world that became
The toxic shame, inside our eyes of pain

All these tears that fall down, from these eyes
Is my pain, that I've been feeling inside
Tell me, how long 'can I stay strong?
Before I lose control 'with these eyes of pain

All these tears that fall down, from these eyes
Is my pain, that I've been feeling inside
Tell me, how long 'can I stay strong?
Before I lose control 'with these eyes of pain

All these tears that fall down, from these eyes
Is my pain, that I've been feeling inside
Tell me, how long 'can I stay strong?
Before I lose control 'with these eyes of pain

With these eyes of pain
With these eyes of pain