Lyrics Confessions of a Bourgeois - Next Apollo

I lost touch with reality, I'm too stuck in myself
Couldn't even feel a fucking lending hand for some help
I should get my nerves checked, it might trigger my mood
It's hard to figure out your fate when you're splitting in two

Searching for a gateway, like a hog for some shrooms
Yet my confidence is murdered like a demon from doom
Maybe I should make a startup, nah I'm too far out the loop
Besides I couldn't even haka, I'm too far from the group

Lord knows I've made mistakes that I might put in a song
Release date that's unknown, I'm afraid of the wrongs
All the wrongs that I did would make me look like I'm off
When its out, leave the scene, thoughts will start when I'm gone

Too many people telling me what is meant to be me
I have to keep a distance from everything in my ear
Shit got me thinking bout my past, what I could've seen
Hoping that won't become what I hate is my fear

Working on a project thats too deep into my conscience
Even my brain saw my thoughts as nonsense
My bars so sick my new name be nauseous
We going back to back but this season is off shift

I been trying to make something that can one-up Glitch
Am I better than this or am i meant to be tricked
I will always be focused, I will never flinch
Keep on singing when I'm gone, birds chirp like a finch

Never got a high five
Pass me like a drive-by
Either ripping off this shirt
Or leave it colored like a tie dye

Fight my demons muay thai
If lose then bye bye
Even if i fight right
My case fucked by the zeitgeist

Always tryna make something that could one-up Glitch
Am I better than this or am I meant to be tricked
I will always keep focus, I will never flinch
Sing about me when I'm gone, my stories chirp like a finch

I always kept it real
I put my soul into a track to reap a dollar bill
And if there aint no dollas here then we gotta steal
And if there aint nuthin to steal, then we gotta kill

In this game it gets so hard just to fucking feel
Overcoming all these pains that are hard to heal
Pop another pill just to wake up in the fuckin monin
Mane it hards to stay alive cause im fuckin lonely

Yeah I know I gotta girl but she can't fucking hold me
Its so hard to phone a friend that fucking barely knows me
Besides I'm scared to share my problems with my fucking homies
They could switch up like Nintendo, act like they dont know me

Paranoia got me searching, everybody around like its surround sound
The stress enough to get you shaking like you homesick, outta town
Far from home, and make seize up like your mouths foaming
And everybody looking at me like they countin on me

I hope this makes you feel a way
Hopefully you understand the pain thats in my brain
I hope these leave you like dank, gripped in a stank face
And when you listen 'gain, leave u masked in a blank space

This my Last move, clock hit it like Tik Tok
And let me leave this mortal plane, catch me slipping and then kick rocks
Never flinched from the pressure, kept it rocking like kid rock
I did this shit myself, and left that bitch with his six shots