Thanks Bob

Though people say it in meetings
It's not in the book
Nowhere does it say
In the Big Book of AA
That you shouldn't have a relationship
In your first year of sobriety
And besides, what is a relationship
Anyway?

Isn't every encounter
And every missed encounter
Even every connection that might be made
And then get split apart
Isn't a broken, fucked up relationship
A relationship anyway?

At some point we have to decide
Either everything is a relationship
Or nothing in a relationship
Either God is everything
Or God is nothing

And that is in the book
The Big Book of AA
Nothing can come
Nothing can go away

Everything is
Inseparable
Unbreakable
Incapable
Of being split or combined

No capacity to fast forward
And no way to rewind

There and then
Are here and now
I am
And always have been
And always will be
In the right place
At the right time
Doing the right thing

Because there only ever was
Or is
Or will be

One place
One time
One action
And only one thing

Love
I am love
You are love
We are love
We are an expression
Of creation
Creating our expression
And
Expressing
Our creation
Our creation
Of love
I am love
You are love
We are love
We are an expression
Of creation
Creating our expression
And
Expressing
Our creation
Our creation
Of love

So when I have dinner
With my family
And then feel itchy
And scratch that itch
By engaging in phone sex
Or by going to meet some stranger
Whose questions I don't want to answer
Because they are too personal

And anyway
Those questions deny the truth
That we all are one
They deny the truth that divided
Is something we cannot be or become

So what does it matter if I don't really like you
If I don't like how you look
Or don't even like how you smell
What does it matter if I
Probably won't want to see you again
After I orgasm?

We are indivisibly one
Whether I call you again
Or return your calls
Whether I agree to even give you
My phone number at all

Rejection
Is an illusion
The very idea
Is insanity
There is no you and me
There is just a blob
We could call it God
We could call it Bob

Hi Bob
Thanks for being
So complete
Thanks for putting me at ease
Thanks for giving me your eyes
So I can finally see
So I can put my eyes aside
My eyes that have only ever seen
Insecurity
Threat
And peril
Visions that have only
Ever made me
Fight
Made me desperate
Separate
Apart
With a broken heart
Hurt
And tossed in the dirt

Thanks Bob
For releasing me
Thanks Bob
For setting me free
Thanks Bob
For being the bee's knees
Thanks Bob
For the beautiful tree
Thanks Bob
For infinity
And for reverie
And for every
Thing
Thanks Bob
Thanks Bob
For blue and red and green
Thanks Bob
For black and white
And for all the shades between
Thanks Bob
For whatever
Blah blah blah
Thanks Bob