Advice (feat. autrioly)

Tell me why I'm waiting, for so long
That couldn't give a fuck about me
No
Feel like I'm dead but the pain in my head
Feelin' so lost but you wanted me dead
Time to get high cause I'm scared of the rest
I'm waiting for time, just put me to death
Standing on the edge of the pier
So afraid to die, so I'm wiping these tears
Drivin' down roads I'm too drunk to steer
God I can't take it, just leave me here
These thoughts in my brain they stay and remain
Finding my purpose like mud in the rain
Mark on my arm like I was Abel & Cain
I can't look at the mirror I cannot refrain
If I looked at myself, I would be thinkin of you
Cause you were the one who tore me in two
Everyone's eyes they remind me of you
I can't go outside I'm reminded of you
Why am I waiting, like what's the point?
You'll never love me so I light up a joint
When I fall asleep all I hear is your voice
I don't wanna leave but this was your choice
What is my purpose, what can I provide?
Who do you hate, I'm the one they despise
Fuck the cops, they don't care for my rights
I'm so done with this life fuck it I just need some advice
Tell me why I'm waiting, for so long
That couldn't give a fuck about me
No
Yeah I'm talkin to God about my whole life
He sayin' to get up, cause that shit isn't right
I'm crying in bed cause I'll never find light
Killin' my demons, the rest of tonight
If you were me, then you just wouldn't fight
Spreading my wings, everything will be fine
Walk in the dark, hands grippin' a knife
God by my side it'll be alright
Killin' em' slowly, like what have I done
I'mma just blame being young and so dumb
Facing my fears, screamin' no I won't run
Spillin' these tears, what have I become
I'm done with the shit and I'm done with the games
You lit my heart up and you sparked a new flame
I'mma stay prayin' for these brighter days
But knowing myself, I won't ever change