Lyrics Dying Inside - JayteKz

I got these dark thoughts, clogging up my fucking brain
Might grab a blade and let it puncture through my fucking veins
Watch the blood drip, and let myself die slow
And when you find my body, make sure that my eyes closed
And this is me, this is how I truly fucking feel
So when you look me in my eyes, just know the pain is real
I've been through things that I won't ever probably heal from
Stuck in my dreams, cause when I sleep is when I feel numb
I never thought my life would turn into a nightmare
I fight my demons, but they never fucking fight fair
If you only knew the half of what the fuck I face
I try to move forward but it's like I'm stuck in place
No matter what, It's like the devil's chillin' on my shoulders
Everyday is getting darker, nights are getting colder
Barely sober just so I could leave reality
But when the high wears off, depression just recaptures me

Take a look into my eyes
Can you tell me what you see
I've been empty, dead inside
Take me out of my misery
Can you listen to my heart
Can you tell me if it beats
Can you see all of my scars
Every single wound that is hidden deep

And I don't want to be alive no more
And I can't bear this pain, these tears I can't hide no more
And I don't feel the love, no I don't feel the love at all
And nothing feels real, my life is just a big facade
I wish that I could change, I wish that I could smile again
I wish I could explain this hell in which I'm drowning in
I'm sinking fast and I can feel my soul burn to ashes
Don't hold my hands when it's time for you to close my casket
Let me go, let me rest in peace and finally heal
And let my story represent the pain I once concealed
I gave it all I had but somethings just aren't meant to be
I tried to tell you that my time would come eventually
No matter what, just know I'm thankful for the life I had
I'm thankful for the memories and all the empty laughs
Forever sad, my Innocence will be forever gone
So long, I won't be breathing by the crack of dawn

Take a look into my eyes
Can you tell me what you see
I've been empty, dead inside
Take me out of my misery
Can you listen to my heart
Can you tell me if it beats
Can you see all of my scars
Every single wound that is hidden deep