Lyrics Hidden Tears - JayteKz

Could you picture love without an end?
Picture love without the tears?
Picture life without a friend?
And picture life without no fears?
And what if we embraced our years?
What if we embraced our years?
What if we embraced our years, and we ain't ever look back?
What if we replaced tears with love, happiness and laughs?
And what if there was no sadness?
What if there was no sadness?
What if we ain't ever feel hurt and all we ever felt was joy?
What if we ain't feel unsure and always knew where we were going
Just what if?
Could you picture that?

Yo, I'm so lost inside my mind
I feel like I'm out of time
I'm so tired of mama crying
I'm so tired of people dying
I'm so tired of saying goodbye
I'm so tired of holding tight
I'm so tired of feeling tired
I just wanna' close my eyes
I don't wanna' see tomorrow
And everyday that follows
I can't relate to no one I've grown sick of all these convos
Everything seems pointless
I feel like I'm voiceless
No one understands this not my choice I can't control this
Depression has me captive
I know I should be grateful, but I take this shit for granted
Honestly, I'm sorry
If I could change I really would, but this is who I am and I'll forever be misunderstood
I'm just a product of what God made
I'm just a product of a flawed Man with heartaches
I'm just a product of a broken soul
I'm just a fallen angel walking down this lonely road

I don't know man
I wish I had answers for the way I felt
I wish I knew why I hold this burden deep within
I don't do this shit on purpose
I don't choose to feel this way
It's much deeper than that
And sometimes it kills me because I see everyone else happy
I see my family
My friends
They just seem so much stronger mentally,
And me, I'm so fucking vulnerable
And I just don't get it
And that scares me
That scares me because I'm wearing out
You know I try and tell people be strong
But what does that mean when I'm running out of strength myself?
You know?
It's like
It's like, it's like I just can't catch happiness anymore man

If depression was a switch
I would flick it off right now
But depression's like a bitch that don't like to see you smile
She will kick you when you're down and she will trip you when you're up
She will stick you to the ground and she will hit you in the gut
I've been dealing with this shit for years
And I hide the pain amongst my peers
When I explain it's like nobody hears
Only if
They saw these hidden tears
I've been dealing with this shit for years
And I hide the pain amongst my peers
When I explain it's like nobody hears
Only if
They saw these hidden tears

Only if you saw these hidden tears
You would see I'm suffering
You would know that I'm sincere and I've had just enough of me
I don't like no company I much prefer to be alone
Distant from my loved ones and hardly am I ever home
I just wanna' run away
Somewhere where the sun is grey
Somewhere where there's no such thing as pain and no such thing as hate
Somewhere where I'll be okay
Someday I will be okay
No I can't promise you I'll stay
No longer holding on as I slowly slip away
To live another day means to fight another war
Forgive and always pray but I can't do that shit no more

I could tell my faith is dying
I'm trapped inside my own asylum
I lost myself and I can't find 'em
If I off myself I'll probably find 'em
Yeah I could tell my faith is dying
I'm trapped inside my own asylum
I lost myself and I can't find 'em
If I off myself I'll probably find 'em